turning gay

sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet

manifesto

tadi time cycling dalam hujan, aku tetiba terfikir nak update pasal mcm2. actually i was quite upset sbb acct multiply aku dah takdek, thus a lot of early, pre-fb adelaide pics are gone somewhere floating within the blackhole of internet cloud. the surviving pics are mostly yang aku letak kat blog. maybe aku nak kena check balik kot2 aku ada backup dlm cd ke hd yang aku tak dapat nak track.

peh emo cycling dalam hujan memang best!

change is in progress

going fishing, bro?

post ini adalah serius gila dan akan menyusutkan kepala hotak ramai orang. kalau korang rasa cam nak murtad tuh nampak sangat iman tak kuat. bawak2 lah bertaubat.

Arus Baru a.k.a ISMA nih apekebenda sebenarnya? entah, aku pon tak berapa tau dah, dan aku tak kesah pon nak ambik tau pasal policy diorang yang kejap2 dok berubah. pada aku, ISMA nih macam jemaah tabligh, diorang nih hanya berani nak sembang2 dengan orang islam yang baik2, yang datang masjid, yang puasa yang bayar zakat etc. lepas tuh tak pasal2 nak impose ideologi diorang kat orang2 cenggini ini haram, ini halal, ini boleh buat, ini tak boleh, ini bagus, ini macam bagus bla bla bla. aku rasa sebab ni lah aku tak berapa nak suka join diorang, dok kasik alasan vague2, bila suruh baca quran dok tergagap2, dan bila tanya hukum basic pon kadang2 tak lepas. yang korang dok bertahun2 duduk dalam jemaah tuh dok belajar apa pon aku tatau.

ilmu tanpa amal tuh sia-sia, amal tanpa ilmu tuh gila. okeh aku nih level sia-sia aku tau tapi aku tak gila.aku rasa aku tak gila, sebab hari2 kalau aku stress aku pi lepak dementia wing layan orang gila best woo!

time aku kecik2 dulu, sekolah aku tuh sekolah JIM, so majoriti budak2 situ anak2 JIM ( bukan anak2 JIN ye kawan2, jangan tanya aku apa ayat2 nak boleh kasik terbang atau kat mana depa sorok harta ahmad albab pulak ye). dari kecik aku dok pelik apasal la parent aku nih tak JIM dan tak encourage kitorang join JIM. aku tau la parents aku dedua engineer grad UK, tak pandai cakap arab, tapi diorg tiap2 hari bangun pukul 3.30am solat tahajjut kot, sebab tuh la hidup aku berkat pre-akil baligh. aku nak bangun tengok bola kadang2 pon termiss. nak tau organisation nih bagus ke tak, try keluar kejap dari organisasi tu dan tengok apa diorang kata. keluar kejap dan tengok dari luar, then barulah korang tahu, keluar group je jangan jadik murtad pulak. 

sekarang JIM dah pupus, terpecah jadi IKRAM dan ISMA atas sebab2 yang aku pon xberapa pasti dan aku malas nk korek2. baik aku korek2 cerita pasal clinical manager aku beromen dengan satu hot staff kat tpt keje yang sedang hangat diperkatakan oleh staffs.

sekarang banyak otai2 IKRAM, esp area JB tuh geng2 aku, tp since aku jarang jumpa diorang aku tak apdet sangat bab2 IKRAM nih, dan diorang pon tak keluar news byk sangat mcm ISMA so lantak diorang lah. marilah kita focus untuk menghentam ISMA, yang lain2 tuh next time boleh buat.

memang aku chow dari usrah ISMA sebab aku memang tak berapa suka/setuju dengan prinsip2, silibus2 usrah diorang yang dok kena hafal benda pelik2 nih. aku dari kecik sampai besar aku layan usrah yang praktikal aje, yang ada involvement dengan community sekeliling etc. kalau nk suruh hafal2 tuh, baik lah kau suruh budak2 tuh hafal quran, ada gak faedah. lg pon aku tengok otai2 yang hebat2 ilmu agama mcam matshah, syafiq mat dan abang aku, diorang pon chow/tak join isma. walaupon aku dah chow dari ISMA, aku still join program diorang dan aku still try nak involve dengan usrah diorang dan usrah2 lain, tapi haram lah diorang nak ajak.tak dek hal lah, boleh aku pi tengok bola at Hindmarsh weekend2. still aku respek gila kat orang2 mcm Nizam & Muslim, yang lain2 tuh aku tak berapa pasti.

pendek cerita, i find it very contradicting when suddenly diorang cakap pasal "melayu sepakat islam berdaulat" dan "undilah calon muslim berwibawa". what a freaking Bulgaria!! (saved by the spellcheck). aku bukan ahli PAS/UMNO/DAP/USNO/PASOK MOMOGUN/Pati Ikan Haruan etc, tapi seriously apa yang aku experienced dengan ISMA for so many years, it was far from "melayu bersatu" dan "berwibawa" . for those terms to be used by ISMA shows multiple layers of hypocrisy yang aku memang tak boleh belah. aku baca jugak news2 isma, dan clip2 youtube diorang, still aku ada tiga persoalan yang tak terjawab

1. apa hala tuju yang jelas dan realistik Arus Baru ?

2. what make you think that your idea is something new and have never been tried in Malaysia before? bak kata george bush " fool me once, shame on you, fool me - you cant get fooled again"

3. korang akan buat list calon muslim berwibawa tuh sapa ke? apa definisi berwibawa korang tuh? orang tak konfius kalau ada list cenggitu haa.

to those people who say that "alah, calon2 ISMA nih semua ustat2 yang takdak experience bab duit, governance etc", experience tuh something yang kena carik, everybody starts at zero. lagipun aku tak kenal pon calon2 nih personally macam mana aku tau diorang tuh memang betul2 berwibawa ke kat public je bajet beriman tapi kat rumah hari2 subuh gajah. sebab tuh la  pada aku lagi senang vote by party instead of vote by candidate.

sekian sahaja, memangdangkan negara Malaysia nih negara demokrasi, memang lah tak salah korang nak sibuk2 masuk bertanding, samalah juga kalau parti gay atau parti anjing nak bertanding, tapi aku rasa your existence is kinda gate-crashing, kacau daun, divisive dan mengkonfiuskan orang islam dan orang bukan islam. pru13 is not the right time to this bro.

demokrasi kan? suka hati aku lah nak tulis apa pon. siapa suruh korang baca. kalau tak dak orang yang baca pon bukan aku kesah, esok jumaat aku kerja separuh hari je muahahaha.

mabuk laut

DS Rosmah mesra rakyat! RT @barisanasional: Isteri PM lancar Tabung Kesejahteraan Kanak-kanak Sedunia buff.ly/130m5Nv
— Barisan Nasional (@barisanasional) February 18, 2013

syok sendiri sampai RT tweet sendiri kah kah kah

not about ISMA

@ihsanhuhu Sorry your voice doesnt carry any weight if you have less than 280 followers. #pakatancybertrooperdetected
— Barisan Nasional (@barisanasional) February 7, 2013

@na2kap @ihsanhuhu We are very appreciative and receptive of the threat. However, we dont like to play God. Only time will tell.
— Barisan Nasional (@barisanasional) February 7, 2013

arrogant c*nt!

having kittens

things that happened since the last update:

1. Cycling

went up Mt Coot-Tha. like a cougar's k-pop toyboy; very metro with an upmarket name yet not that hard. the whole climb took about 20 mins. might do it again tho

went cycling to bribie island again, but wasn't tempted to get into the surf. it was a windy stormy weekend

2. Work

very flat like a flat-chested chick... superficially it *can look very boring.

3. Caboolture

volunteered myself to help with Arabic and Quran class for local kids. for Arab kids not to be able to recognise Arabic letters is just sloppy parenting. very interesting nonetheless.

Ashura Mauritius style

and when one local woman converted last week, it made me think of my logic behind a job transfer request stating "to be closer to mosque and muslim community" as the reason behind it. what a poofter.

4. Other stuffs

futsal: will try and participate fortnightly on thursdays in Nundah

tennis: weekly; finally i won a match last weekend. hoyeah!

golf: will have to make more time 

"abandoned, inconsistent and lack of depth..." the perfect description of this blog circa 2012.

*a very safe choice of word

cramping my weekends

1. work

last week was fun, received 4 new residents, one of them is an Indonesian-speaking Dutch. while she can't talk any more, i spent quite sometimes with the husband. jadik indon celup sepam. staff appraisal went really well. the co is pretty happy with my work but we'll see how it goes.

on the sour note, it's kinda weird to know the length one would go to attempt suicide.

2. cycling

tried a new route yesterday. the middle third of the ride was inundated with punishing climbs. it's been a while since i last ride until i puked. maybe i should not have had breakfast beforehand. i will try to do this route at least once a week when i'm not away. nice view of farms, hills and creeks along the way.


       

3. qurban

i'm doing a bit with the muslimaid this year, and i think the canned option is a brilliant idea. 100% tax deductible to those who are a bit "financial-conscious".

and i still don't know whether i should take a leave, call in a sicky or just go to work a bit later if eid falls on a friday.

4. other stuffs

- might start golfing
- futsal on thursday night with the Bald Hills boys
- kinda regret declining to play the local monday night fixture tennis tournament
- walk the night was good. i was walking with a very cute chick besides me. not sure if she's actually cute or the darkness made anything looks better. too bad her mom was there so i cant be the ultra-friendly creepy stranger.

all's well, got tennis this arvo. catch ya latter.